Who Am I? Why Am I Here?

I was feeling pensive tonight so made a list of stuff about me, in case you wondered.


• In high school, my nickname was Melt. Now, most people call me Tuck. You can call me whatever you want.

• I'm just another kid from Africa (or wherever) who doesn't know where she belongs or how she's getting there or how she'll know "there" when she sees it.

• I'm afraid of commitment, but not in the typical way. Most of my life, the friends I've loved the most have been taken away from me whenever my family moved to a different country. I'm afraid that will happen again, even though I know it won't if I don't let it.

• I love animals, because I don't have to hold up a conversation with them.

• I love yellow roses because they stand for friendship, and without friendships I'm all alone in the world.

• I don't mind getting lost, because I like the feeling of uncertainty and I like the challenge of finding myself again.

• I trust easily, perhaps too easily, but underneath I guard myself, perhaps too much.

• My thoughts are always clearest when my vision is blurred with tears.

• I have friends everywhere, and I miss them so much, and I think about them all the time, but I never pick up the phone to call them because I'm afraid I won't know what to say.

• I used to hate nicknames as a kid, but then I realized that people only take the time to give you a nickname if they care about you.

• I don't like to be the center of attention. I'd rather have the person in the spotlight looking at me for their moral support and encouragement because they know I'll always be by their side.

• I don't truly express myself a lot, because I'm always waiting for the perfect moment. Someday I'll realize that the perfect moment doesn't occur very often.

• I'd do anything for someone who needs my help, but I hate it when people go out of their way for me.

• I stand very firmly in my beliefs. I'm a Christian, and God is my beginning, my end, and everything in my inbetween.

• Sometimes I pull away from people I love, but only because I'm afraid they'll push me away.

• I love music, I love singing, and I don't care what people think.

• I love the rain, because it says everything I can never say in a way that I'll never be able to imitate.